Nightlin

I open my eyes I can hear you breathing nothing but darkness but you still hold me. A thin sheen of sweat repeated nightmares a scream, falling tears a mournful cry for life I open my eyes I can hear silence morning light but your not there not there to hold me.

To cry those blood red tears that I cryed, like the seeping red of a freshly made wound, from the sharpened blade of a razor. To stab as one dose into the back of ones who they love. To cry those blood red tears that I cryed. To feel the beat of your lovers heart agents your chest then the cold steel of a blade as it cuts deep into their chest. To cry those blood red tears that I cryed. To let death over take me. To cry these blood red tears that I cry. All over you, and the broken hear that you hold in your hand!

Alone in the darkness.    Crying… Crying for my ruined life,      The life's I have ruined  And life's I've yet to ruin.       Crying for pain in the only space I call mine.    The darkness…my companion…my lover…my slow death.       My voice confuses me…telling me lies…telling me wrong…convincing me to lose.  The scares on my arms show how many times my voice has deceived me.       Caring not if the cut goes to deep…caring not if it kills me.         CARING NOT IF I CESE TO EXSIST!     LOVE is the knife that mutilates me… My lover is the one that holds the knife, to spill every drop of my liquid life…    My precious e

I told you that I wanted to give up love…you told me NO. I told you that I wanted to die…you told me NO.   STOP telling me no! You told me to not die, to not give up the pain will pass…then stop giving me this pain. Stop making me cry. I don't care if you love me; I don't care if you hate me. BUT STOP CONFUSING ME! Slop loving me when you hate me, stop hating me when you love me. You cast your bait and hook, and time after time I grabbed hold of it. Well think of it this way, I'm drowning now in my pain and the only thing that is going to save me is that line you throw to kill me with.

"My light…where are you? Slowly it leaves me, running…darkness swallows me." Cold dead fingers grab onto you, ripping your flesh, tearing at your chest, to get to your heart…but find it gone. He digs his long fingernails into the flesh that covers your ribs, with one quick SNAP your ribs are cracked and broken. As your blood spills to the floor your screams are lose in to taunting sound of his troops laughing. Laying on the ground these demons part. You stay paralyzed…the blood pooling in the now open space of your hallow chest. The devil himself steps forward, a look of pride on his face for he now has what he wants. He pulls your body

Hated life what have I done I killed myself with just two words. I hated you then, but hate myself now. You tried to help and I didn't want to hear it, I didn't want to know that I was wrong, I dint want to know how you would make things just a little bit easier on me. I acted like my sister… turned from you only to find you're right now. I don't ask for forgiveness, I don't think I should have it, all I ask for is your help now. You know I can lie to you because you know that It will happen again and once more will we be in the same place that we're in now. Just go now and leave you don't deserve to be left with me you can get so much better